Dr. Robert's Meditation: March 14, 2009: I felt the presence of Aleta, who had been my mother and who had made her transition (died) in 1990. She was sad and remorseful from remembering, reviewing and re-evaluating the death of her daughter, Rosalie, when I had been almost age 7. Rosalie's sudden, unexplained demise at 6 months of age had signaled the death of love (Rose) in our family. Aleta had become so depressed afterward that she had to be hospitalized and to receive a series of shock treatments. She had returned to raise my brother and me, but she never again was her vibrant self. When she had been taken to the mental hospital, I had felt so hurt by her loss that I had decided I never would love anyone again. Now, in this communion, we merged as one in embracing this past tragic death. I told her, as I had many previous times, that I forgave her and that I knew she had done the very best she could have done. Moreover, this time, I especially asked Spirit for forgiveness of our karma that had led to Rosalie's death and the fracturing of our family.
In time, Aleta regained her balance and left. Afterward, I psychically perceived and realized that I still had a kind of blood clot in my right cerebral hemisphere, which was the residual scar tissue from the bleed-out of this past soul-searing trauma, plus the traumas in past lives. I worked with love to dissolve this clot, and to fill my cerebral love throne with love and forgiveness. With this accomplished, I rested, like in a hospital room. In time, off to my left, the door to the room opened and a nurse brought in a newly born baby girl and placed her on my chest. Her name was Rose or Rosalie. Like any new mother, I was in awe of this precious new bundle of joy, whose presence filled my heart with incredible, indescribable love.
After pondering all of this for a long time, and wondering if I had received it correctly, I was shown the image of a light-brown colored egg, like a chicken's egg, that moved from my heart, down my spine and was implanted in my regenerative center. I intuitively knew that I was to be as a mother hen for the next eight months or so, until my love child would be hatched or birthed, perhaps in November when we focus on the power of regeneration.
INTERPRETATION: Since the beginning of March when we started focusing on the power of love, I had been reviewing all of the residual threads from my childhood decision never to love anyone again. It's not like I had not thought about this before, for I have concentrated on this aspect of my soul healing for some forty years. Here is my core defining subconscious belief that has laid the foundation for so much of my difficulty and soul searching in this life: I will not love others because it may hurt too much to lose them. As a young child, I put my faith in this belief, rather than in believing that Mother God and Mother Mary would always be with me, always was with me, and always would love me; and that no matter what the abandonment or loss, it could be transmuted and healed with love.
I remember few details, but I feel certain that Aleta and I have been together many times in past lives in various relationships. Over the years, the essence of our soul karma has been revealed to me, indicating that both she and I at times have left Nada and Sol-O-Man, and have gone off and selfishly done our own thing. In facing the consequences and rebalancing of this soul error in this lifetime, Aleta lost her daughter and I lost my mother. This was not punishment but rather the inexorable reaping of what we had sown, not in a literal or eye-for-an-eye fashion, but in comparable experiences that burned the lesson into our soul. From 1974 to 2005, when Nada-Yolanda made her transition (died), I loyally and lovingly served her on the Mark-Age staff, thereby clearing the deck of my negative karma with her and beginning anew at a higher octave. For the last 18 years, Aleta has reviewed all of this in the higher astral planes while I have done my corresponding work on Earth. Together, we are a healing team, whose divine love sets an example for the transmutation of all mothers and sons, teachers and disciples, and fractured families.
Love and forgiveness are the key to healing any imbalance and any family trauma. Researchers estimate that only 1-2% of children have balanced, healthy, loving relationships with both of their parents. The vast majority of children carry the scars of their dysfunctional childhood into adulthood, which often leads to some disease of the heart and circulatory system, as well as other organs. Like me, in their early years, such children often form some erroneous core belief about the nature of love, and put their faith in this limited, fractured view. This is why healing must start first in the cerebrum, which is the faith center in which we program our beliefs; and then proceed in an orderly way via the strength and love faculties.
It often takes decade to peel back all of the resulting layers of pain and love imbalance that originated with the initial false belief about love. Moreover, this early belief typically reflects one's entire soul history, going back many lifetimes and ages. However, when we believe that love conquers all and we persist in our soul healing, we eventually arrive at a stage of forgiveness (like unto Jesus on the cross) that finally dissolves the residual "blood clots on the brain," and reprograms and refills the cerebral love throne with positive, healthy, loving thoughts, images and feelings.
This is crucifixion and resurrection. In my dream, Aleta and I worked first to review and to cross out the remaining threads of the past, and to dissolve them with love and forgiveness. Following this came rebirth or resurrection, in which a new, feminine, love child is birthed and placed in my heart. Yet, this resurrection does not occur all at once or in one fell swoop. Rather, it takes place in stages, such that love circulates sequentially throughout all of the other the other 12 powers and their corresponding organs and systems, following the organic and systemic pathway that we are following each month of this year, until the baby or "chick" is born.
I had to chuckle about the analogy of being a mother hen, for it certainly is not something at which I have been very good. I typically like action, getting on with things, having something done right now. Here I am being instructed to complement this prototypical masculine approach with mother, feminine love that works behind the scenes, that proceeds slowly and in a protective manner, and that devotes itself completely to the gradual gestation and birthing process. I am to empty myself of all other desires and actions, so that I can give myself fully to my Christ pregnancy.
Something new probably also has been birthed in your heart during this month of love. Together, let's be a healing mother hen and surround the seed-egg-fetus of our I Am Self as it grows and develops within us. Come November, let's get together and cluck like mother hens as we lovingly present our newly born Christ children. Now, won't that be fun!