Dr. Robert's Dream: September 4, 2008: I came upon a huge tree, well over a hundred feet tall. Its trunk was so wide that it had a door, which I opened. There was a hollow space inside, just wide enough that I could walk into it. When I did this, however, I discovered that my spine was not straight, but rather bowed out two feet in front of me, particularly in front of my heart. This made it impossible for me to get inside the hollow space of the tree trunk and to close the door.
INTERPRETATION: The tall tree is my light body's tree of life. I enter into the spine (trunk) of my light form, but the physical spine of my mortal self is bowed out in front of me -- I am "bent out of shape." Rather than being centered and aligned, I have put too much strength and energy into the things that are in front of me, out in the world. Therefore, I cannot enter fully into, and rise by way of, the spine of my I Am Self and light body.
There are a number of reasons for this forward thrust of my spine. Partly, it is due to my proper desire to serve, to help, to love others. For example, for the last three years of her life, I was a caregiver of my spiritual teacher, Nada-Yolanda. With only a few of us to minister to her, it took all my strength to do this, to bend but not break, to do what was required at the time. It was not my fault that others who could have helped did not do so. With that behind me, it is time to pull back, to rest, to recenter myself, and to get ready for my next step. As I served, so will I now be served by Spirit in my upliftment.
Throughout my life, numerous key friends and associates have not held up their end of their partnerships with me. Many are called, but few are chosen, because only the few choose the difficult way of the straight and narrow. Without their complementary and supplementary energies, I was pulled into projects and activities that originally were not mine to do; I did double and triple duty. Now I am to let those past difficulties go, to leave them behind me, and to shut the door on them, so that I can rise into a new level of I Am consciousness.
The forward thrust of my spine also reveals my tendency to be "wound for sound," to get too involved in the daily drama of life, to go where even angels fear to tread, to get ahead of myself. As a physician and scientist, I also tend to put too much attention on conscious analysis and physical activity (the front part of me), versus subconscious intuition and rest (the back part of me). In my new step now, I have the opportunity to refine and correct these tendencies.
Like most light workers, I still face the temptation of wanting to be loved by others; hence my spine is bowed out the most in front of my heart. At times, I do not look to God and my teachers, but rather to others, for confirmation, verification, reassurance and the feeling that I am loved. Now I am to gather greater strength from God's love and from loving others selflessly without any hope of something coming back to me, even as I receive love and support willingly given to me by my friends and coworkers.
The way up the spine to I Am consciousness is straight and narrow; thus, the opening inside the trunk of my dream tree is just wide enough for me to be inside it, without my spine bowing forward or backward, or to either side. In time, when my spine straightens, strengthens and stabilizes, Spirit will lift me up the trunk (spine) of the tall tree of my light body into a whole new level of spiritual or Christ consciousness. I, when I am lifted up, will lift all others unto me. So be it.
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